The Boss

Assalamualaikum and Hye

I had read a lots of article regarding working environment and the impact it would had to their staff. I would consider myself the lucky ones whom for me, I learned from the best in the business. 

It is true when a captions stated, "work because of the boss, not the company", I related myself as someone who had the opportunity to learn, and to work under supervision whom could extract all the hidden talent from a person.

This kind of leader its hard to find. Say you would work until you are 55, how many companies could you jump, and these kind of leader are already scarce, and their qualities are hard to find.

Anyway, my wife always said that I'm his puppy, because until now, his habits had been embedded incautiously inside me. They way he dress, the way he handles people, how he talks, being confidence, don't give a damn about other people who is an asshole, the way he work, the way he plans, and also the way he thinks.

Back then, we would share a cup of coffee if we have the spare time, and that is when we share our ideas, the company plans and also office gossips.

I will always regard him as my mentor, whom taught me so much about the working environment, how to survive in the real working world, and also how to be whom I am right now.

Even though we separated in the most worst condition, but I am sure it is Gods will. Because if it never happen, I would stuck in a situation where I could not fulfill my full potential.

Anyway, I will always be thankful for him, even though I would really like to be under his tutelage for at least another 6-7 years.

Maybe it is also depend to the person. Ex-colleague had been working under him for almost 12-15 years, but they still remain the same person without any wings to unfold.

Oh well, maybe I'm just emotional.

  When Lisa is too afraid watching the sharks eating Nemo siblings...

Understanding and Learning..

Assalamualaikum and Hye, 

I am on a writing streak. Forgive the language or sentences. I did not proof check after writing up. 

Sometimes I need time to understand and learn something. All of us do. But there is also a person who only need to watch, learn and listen once, they already knew what to do. This is kind of people do exists, but its a rare catch. 

Anyway, this blog is not for Mensa reader. I am talking about the normal people like me, whom by people standard, we are just normal, but do remember that God made us special in a certain way. 

Sarah always mentioned to me, when I am watching a movie, she would go, "You tengok cerita ni macam tak pernah tengokkan? Padahal movie ni dah dekat 25 kali you layan.." Yes, that is my habit. I have a few favorite movies that I watch, watch, watch, and watch again. Sometimes, after watching the tenth times, than, I would get what is the plot, what is the dialogue and what are they actual means. 

Understanding and learning also imply to work. But everyone knows how to survive in the working environment. To those who have the survival skills, they will survive where ever they go. They will bring positive impact, change the mood, and even dictate to the company policy in some sort. 

Understand and learning also imply in everyday chores. Driving as an example, the highway you drive everyday to work, by now you had learn the curves, the bumps, the speed that you could max out, or even other drivers that are also using the highway. The other drivers might be the same person you had met in the same highway everyday. So that, in this case, their behavior are predictable. Well for me it make sense. Maybe not others. 

Another example, had you been driving everyday at an average speed of 170km/j, that everything pass by u so slow. That is not because you are the king of speed or what other poyo statement, but practicing everyday on the same road, at the same speeds for years makes you perfect. But accident do happen, so be wise. You are no Vestappen. 

This what happens when you have too many rabbits at home

Rejections and Failure

Assalamualaikum and hye,

Sometimes when I look at Lisa, my nephew and nieces, they all live in a world of their own. They might not know how we as parents struggle, how we tried to put up with their tantrums, or even how we live our own lives until the end. 

Being a parent myself, I had understand how hard our parents tried to bring us up as a human beings. Trying to put a meal on the dinner table, toys for us, clothes, gadgets or even our underwear. It not an easy task. But what is the best thing we can do? Pray for them. I am sure what we had face in this current situation, they might had faced the same fucking problem. 

Also, not only our parents shape us what we had became, our aunties, uncles, bibiks or what ever, they also played a major role into our upbringings. So it always come back to me that, always remember them in our prayers. 

Part of life is growing OLDER. It makes sense now. Sometimes we complaint we had small pay, stupid jobs, crazy colleagues, or better, everything seems against us. Why? 

I would like to recall my time again at UM. As to whom knew my life, UM is a place where there is no bottom and ups for me, but what make it difference is the people surrounding me. When everything seems to be against you, sometimes you even complaint about God not being fair to you, but God do sent other human beings to help you around. 

A roommate of mine Nik Sai, always remind me, God will not test out of a person limit. It is true, because I am one of the person who kept being rejected and failure in a lot sort of way in UM. But the magic came from my parents, siblings, classmates, close friends and even the best lecturer I ever had Dr. Azuan. With out him, maybe I ended being some one who has no vision or striving capabilities. 

Being rejected even being on the peak of your career is always a big blow out to my self esteem. But maybe that is the way how God makes you realize that you are fucking nobody, but I do realize that if you remember Him more, prostrate to Him, ask Him, He would give back to you. Either you realize it or not. 

Being rejected is not the end of the world, YES it hurts, but I do have to let it go. God might had better plans for me. He had planned it since the creation of the universe. 

Anyway, I should learn my lesson when I was at UM. Maybe its time God tried to put me down back and remember Him... 

What is better having a kid to give you high blood pressure?? 

When things don't come EASY..

Assalamualaikum and Hye..

Could you believe that it had been more than 12 months from my last post? I am sure no one is reading it, so ini cerita dalam blog ini lebih kepada syok sendiri.

Lisa is 2.5 years, me working in a same company more than two years which is a record already, and still things don't come easy in life. 

Why? Because when I do observe the people surrounding me, some of them get things so easy. It could be a new job, new car, new wife [HAHAHAHA], and some of them seems life is so easy. But I do learn that that is not the case. We might not know what the hardship he or her had endure, the sacrifice he or she had faced, or the challenges they had gone through. 

Anyway, I had faced this situation since zaman UM lagi. Politeknik years flies like an F-22. No pressure, no issues. Apa maw issue kalau kasut yang di supply oleh kakak sendiri tidak boleh kurang dari RM500? No issues at Politeknik. But, when I entered UM, all the bottom lows I had felt. Maybe nak lagi hebat, mungkin kena buat Master and PHD at UM. 

So when EASY life does not comes to me, I understand. It just my wife and I always experience until now. But the hard thing is controlling the temper and frustration. Syaitan dan iblis sangat sangat la membisik pada telinga supaya mengamuk, sakit hati, iri hati dsb. The best thing is? Reset the mind dan sentiasa bersyukur apa yang Allah telah beri. Rezeki tuhan yang beri. No one else. You have to do the ground work, and the rest let God decide. 

Anyway, be positive, try to smile and let see what tomorrow comes.