taste of loneliness..

asslamualaikum and hye..

special sem starts today. i rack a total of 9 credits hour this semester. im gonna bust if im not prepared for the finals at june.

today i got the early feeling of being alone and surviving at UM by myself. mostly of my frens are waiting to graduate, i will be searching for nonsense for another year.

di sini kawan2 aku akan bergraduasi

a fren beside u in class or in exam hall could be ur lifeline, ur sidekick or even your saviour. cheatscodes, tips, and answer given to you by your fren could differentiate a C or C-.

now im ALONE. fack..

feel sick when knowing that u gonna be eating alone, pergi bangsar sorang2, and senyum sorang. gi lab com sorang2 pun cukup menyeksakan. fack..

now, at the moment, i could have siddik, or afiq at HP. but later, im gonna be alone. stuck with someone im not close with.. fack again..

aku cakap kat sid, "lepas sem khas, aku nak letak jawatan. putus asa blh?". sid hanya gelak. dia cakap "chill.." aku dalam hati, owh, fack again. i hate his guts..

people says i have a gf. but my gf is working. not a student. i cant disturb her when ever i wanted to. she have her own life..

how hard is being alone? hmm. bayangkan ko kat pelantar minyak kat tgh2 padang pasir, penuh dengan warga asing. semua makanan tak halal. tandas kotor. bunk bed ada baw. makan tak sedap, and the weather sucks. or imagine, u in some foreign country, working as a engineer, no one knows u, and the people ko kenal adalah kat opis. and they have their own life.. ko gi kerja, balik umah ALONE.. something like that..

yes, my life alone is just a few hours.. but how do u explain if u are used to have people around you, and suddenly they are gone?

imagine, when at UM, when u are bored, gi ajak member tgk wayang, gi makan, ponteng kelas, blh buat APA-APA saja sebagai student. and when ur frens are gone, u are alone, u will be asking "what the fack??". skrang nak gelak pun tak blh.. demm..

this what happen to people who are close to their frens like me..

today qish pass PDE. jas cakap, "taniah qish, ko berjaya kalahkan abu omar awang", and today also dia kena tukar tayar RM120..

papehal, the guys of biomed adalah gempak.

vida la biomed

**sometimes, i dont understand people who dont "walk the talk." they want the stuff early. and complaint about it. but they themselves doesnt make extra initiative for it..

**sometimes, reality and logics doesnt fits in real life, it doesnt fit in people dreams. so people tend to run from reality and not being logical..

and to alino, thanks for all the hardwork on this classic video., simple but priceless....

challo
salam
hmo