fix you..

assalamualaikum and hye..

just woke up. so tried. sepatutnya jumpa sarah sayang today, but my body just wont let me out of bed.

tetiba stress, penat dan letih. bangun tgk tv, layan series "life after humans" sgt depressing. dah la lately i kept on having bad dreams.

i not sure what are my problems. getting all worked up perhaps. jiwa kacau.

i miss studying so much, that i realize i went to calculus class which starts at 8.00 am more diligently compared when i start working. 98% im never late for calculus even thou i failed the paper 5 times.

nowadays, nak bgn kerja pun malas. maybe i juiced up all my energy while studying perhaps? but like siddik told me, "baru keje 2-3 tahun dah tak larat, mcm mana org yg keje 30 tahun, patutlaa duduk lama kat kedai kopi".. :)

im worried about myself. i can feel i have a lot of hate inside me. dulu, tak pernah kisah pun, maybe now baru nak tgk dunia. semua ada je tak kena.

suddenly i miss tok yam..

tok yamm

"When You Try Your Best, But You Don't Succeed
When You Get What You Want, But Not What You Need
When You Feel So Tired, But You Can't Sleep
Stuck In Reverse"

-fix you, coldplay-

challo
salam
hmo

pissedddddddddd..

assalamualaikum and hye..

J.F.K once said, "Ask not, what your country can do for you. Ask what, you can do for your country."

when i start working, i was " sacrifice for work, one day you will be rewarded".. sbb semangat muda dan waja yg membara.. calculus lima kali katakan..

but now, " you HAVE to do your work becoz no one in the office knows how.."

im not complaining..

i miss my old colleagues. they have a pool table in the middle of the fcuking office, and plasma+astro is coming. FISH! mangg....


salam
challo
hmo

raya..

assalaamualaikum and hye..

selamat hari raya aidilfitri. sorry for everything. kalau ada salah silap, mintak maap. nnti raya jemput datang ke rumah. next year + next year blh raya kat rumah baru at nilai. itu pun kalau sempat. boleh buat raya bbq. kawan2 bawak makanan. sid and abbad tukang bakar. aku n sarah layan tetamu shja. ;)

as i told sarah sayang and few of my frens, this ramadhan im not to happy. i usually look forward for ramadhan every year, but 2011 seems too gloomy. maybe it is caused by few factors. Nik Sai is no more in KL, starting of ramadhan my manager leaves the company, work is no more fun, nak terawih takde kawan (since nik is no more), and all day long aku rasa sayu je. even sid dah habis idea nak buat aku gelak.

life must go on. sometimes aku rasa juga stress hidup mcm ni. everyday bangun kerja you feel unhappy. dulu bgn tido siap siol2 seronok pergi kerja. skrang? nak usha soccernet and fs kat office pun tak sempat.

at least next year aku nak kawen dah. baru perasan aku ramai tertinggal list kawan2 yg sepatutnya di jemput. arrghh. list tak complete lagi. card tak siap. baju kain tak beli lagi. mana nana aku nih.. hilang jee. hehe

this raya, as usual, my baju raya is recycled. i loved old shirts, becoz it looks seasoned, plus i dont feel guilty buying new baju melayu which i will only wore once a year. kalau aku nih kerja gomen, boleh laa tayang baju melayu setiap hari jumaat. macho laa jugak kan. ini takkan aku nak pergi site pakai baju melayu. tak pasal pak indon, bangla, and nepal gelakkan aku smpi guling kat tanah. hoho

tapi sarah sayang cakap, next year baju melayu cik na dah belikan kain. YEAY! sepasang next year!! hhihihihi. semangat!

this year gua tak beli baju, no jeans as usual, no teess, kemeja, boxer what ever la. just one pair of new nike shoes, bought by sarah laaa. hehehe. bergaya laa gua tahun neh. rasa mcm kanak kanak riang super ring.

cool huh?

mcm2 aku nak cerita, tapi semua cerita dalam botol. tak seronok cerita di blog. lagi seronok cerita sambil TT session at pelita.

Selamat hari raya rakan2. selamat hari raya sarah sayang. love u.

and this vid is for you.. huggs!!


salam
challo
hmo

activitiesss..

assalamualaikum and hye...

selamat berpuasa, berbuka, dan berterawih.. in a few weeks, selamat hari raya. aku mcm biasa, tak buat baju raya. haha. macam tahun-tahun yg lepas. not interested. harap-harap nnti sarah akan paksa aku buat baju raya next year supaya aku tak la nampak outdated sangat.

kalau baju raya blh buat pergi keje, pergi site, pergi meeting dan juga berjalan-jalan di site-site yg ada shopping mall takpe gak. every year aku buat 10 helai. but aku suka awek pakai baju kurung / kebaya / etc bila buat jalan-jalan. nampak hot and sexy.. kalau sarah sayang pakai, lagi leleh gua..

tak bnyk benda yg berjaya aku buat this past few weeks. lagi-lagi bila ofis kelam kabut, sana sini resign, aku dah rasa mcm kat opis JKKP, semua org letak jawatan sbb tak suka pengerusi baru. cibai. lagi best Teh, si manager gua pun john hancock kan surat resignation. so, kesimpulannya aku keje mcm tikos mondok lari sana sini.

sape je yg tak tengok malaysia vs singapore. gua siap pergi stadium dgn tunang lagi. eceh.. tunang siottt.. tren mcm sardin campur tuna, stadium lak dah mcm apa aku tak tahu nak cerita. pekak jugak la telinga kena air horn 90 menet.

hafiz sarah combo pix!!


bukit jalil!!

few days back, aku ajak dak2 buka kat rumah. sayangnye aku lupa nak snap gmbr. sarah sayang aka tunang gua (heheheh), sid, abbad, nana, and piee. mak masak, adik buat kuih, yg lain tukang beli makanan kat param and makan sahaja.

yesterday pulak 7-8-2011 kumpul budak-budak UM makan kat wendys. if im not mistaken, kita org tak pernah miss buka bersama-sama since UM years. just ahli-ahlinye sahaja berbeza. mungkin bertambah, berkurang, ada juga tak dapat datang sbb kerja, tiada di KL, atau mmg dah kena pulau. hahhahha

9 org je tahun neh.

congrats to qish and wawa sbb dah nak kawen. qish is next month and if not mistaken si wawa on november. congrats girls. hehe

aku taw citer tunang aku dah basi, but aku saje je nak letak gmbr ni sbb aku rasa sangat best. hehe

gelak sampai puas. love u sayang.. huggs..

take care.
love u sayang!

challo
salam
hmo

finally..

assalamualaikum and hye..


As i promised, aku nak tulis about my pertunangan with sarah. the day was 21-may-2011, why the date? it shud be 11-june-2011 which happens to be on my birthday, but my cuzen got married that day, so we decided to do on the 21st.

Its a well planned day. with all the gifts have been prepared 1-2 months before, and even to the parking issue is carefully diagnose and rectified so that non of my family members rasa susah payah becoz of me.

Almost 50 person came from my rombongan to rumah sarah. 99% are family. they came all the way from Johore but most of them are from KL.

Cik Hamid, my beloved uncle lead the party, and as usual, he was calm as a doctor in an operation room. now i know he have some sense of humor, very loving and caring person.

Well, most of my families are. my parents, sisters, my uncles, aunties, cuzens, anak buah, semua best-best. bagi full support. YEAH!!

Also thanks to my right man people. Siddik aka future best man, alino aka right girl, abbad aka lieutenant, and nik sai as my spy the photographer. their role are not as a guest but as a "staff" recruited from me. hehe.. thanks guyss.

Everything was well planned. i am responsible for the logistic which included transportation, parking and traveling. even these four frens of mine have been briefed the day before (siap upah dinner pelitaaa), excluding abbad which i had to explain on the day.

All of them are given a "brief note" for them to study so that nothing will go wrong under my watch.. hahaha.. since i cant upload the booklet, here are the images..

I was glad that the weather was fine, the food was great, the ambiance was good, and furthermore the crowd was magnificent. macam pergi majlis nikah pulak. i cant imagine bila nikah nnti maw dekat 100 org turun kott.. perrghh..

Here are some pics before and after. since there are a lots of them, aku pun malas nak buat album kat facebook, kalau jumpa aku, rajin2 la tanya, nnti aku bukak lappy kita gelak sesama. hahaha.

I think thats was about it. the merisik was held a few month back, before my engagement. so now, i will just have to wait for the big day.

Sorry for those who i havent told about my engagement. not because hiding the facts, but becoz a few reasons.

Just wait for the cards, hopefully by next year. and to my 4 frens, next year most probably you will not be my guest, but as usual, the ones who will be running the show.

For your information, a lot of people was amaze how we handle the situation, and siap kena recruit lagi for another event, but my frens are special that i have to say no unless nothing could be done.

To nik sai, thanks for the pix. takde gambor ko pun dalam nih. haha. harap2 ko blh hadir next year ok!

Sid, thanks for being the supir angkat bunga kat PS, tolong kemas rumah, jadi drebar, and being the pre-best man job.

Alino, thanks for the support and helping around the house.

Abbad, sorry susahkan ko, kena tinggal tepi jalan and jadi lieutenant aku jaga traffic and the convoy. sora dia je kat walkie.. hehehe. btw bro, keta baru lu jadi kereta pengantin gua boleh??

And to my families, sisters, brothers, thanks alot. coming year yaaaa!!

Sarah ayuni, huggs. love u so much..


challo
salam
hmo

earn it..

assalamualaikum and hye..

i knew that people come in different shape and sizes. they come in different life style and different childhood.

no one is perfect. but i knew a LOTS of people tried to be perfect and being accepted as an equal. so for me, trying to be perfect is normal. not a sin.

but sometimes i hate people who thinks that they are a prince or princess where we should lay a red carpet and treat them like royalty. and further more, this kind of people are widely accepted in the society just because they came from the sky. i wish i could shoot them before "they" could even touch the ground.

i knew myself as hafiz. maybe i cant accept some people. i could hate them, like them, but people never cause me a problem. i can just push them away. but sometimes, they do get around my nerve.

but for me, respect is something to be earned. not just standing still, and expecting a blowjob from someone.

i knew lots of people might have a problem with me, i'm not that kind or nice. i was rejected by nik sai in our early days of frenship, and i was also being left out by some people in my studying days. but those are the past. i start to forget about it, and make it as a joke sometimes.

but still, i tried to be as neutral as possible. stay in the middle. and keep the problems to myself.

it is great to have someone by your side. for those who don't know, i'm engaged to sarah ayuni. i will make a post on it later.

here are a few pix, more will come later.

hafiz & sarah.

brotherly love & sarah xkasi i balik.


the ceremony.

wait for the merisik and pertunangan post. hehe

challo
salam
hmo

counting the days..

assalamualaikum and hye..


hello there! dah lama sangat nak update blog ni. bukan busy, but no ideas..

congrats to Nik "Sai", yg dapat keje gomen. taniah. ramai yang doakan ko utk berjaya. at least puas aku cakap kat ko "ko ni bukan stress, tapi malas!" biar cair telinga ko sket.

there a lot of story i wanna tell, but it will need a few hours of typing, which i dont have right know. maybe later. ena and arina dah bising-bising. maybe later i will story in this blog. or perhaps better, lepak starbuka, aku citer korang blaje aku java chip. ok? heheh

few weeks ago, aku pergi KB. naik tren lagi. nice experience. 12 hour man! tapi takpe. keje tido je.

bunk bed for first class.

the ride was cozy. tapi jgn laa harapkan bes mcm Orient Express, Trans-Siberian Express or Hogwarts Express. but nice enough for u too rest, and tak payah drive for 8 hours to KB.

breakfast keropok sudah.

Congrats to my cuzie Mek Na, dont forget to come mine later ok? hehehe.

anyway, my sis have started a cheese tart business, if u guy/gals interested gimmie a call at
0176709887.

i will be back soon with more stories. im back addicted to COH: Tales of Valor. Trying to annihilate the British are fucking hard. kalau citer, takkan habis. Howitzer dia je dah pening nak cari. heheh.

ok la. love u. btw, tolong jaga kesihatan.

salam
challo
hmo