monyet..

assalamualaikum and hye..

skrang aku tak paham. semakin lama aku semakin meluat org yg letak status FB yg sangat monyet.

but still i cant stop reading it. at least dapat tgk perangai manusia mcm mana. kalau umur ko 12-19 tahun nak kecoh pasal new toys ko, aku paham la. dapat ps vita pun mgkn nak letak kat FB. status.

" I got new PS3", "got new headphones", or "what can i do with my new SII".

punya laa ramai org ada benda-benda mcm ni tak kecoh pun brader. bukan sekali ko post, 4-50 kali ko post kat FB. muak ko tahu.. muak.

cerita benda lain yg gampang hebat boleh? ko beli veyron ke. stakat headphone, ps3, handphone baru ko harga rm2000 sebijik, tak yah kecoh laa..

lagi satu, konon-konon letak terms hebat kat status pasal kerja. what do u expect? somebody to reply, "perghh. koooll sial keje ko??, gaji mesti riban kaan!!" duh..

itu belum cerita yg status poyo pasal politik, religion, newly wedssss. cerita yg newly weds lagi buat aku nak muntah.

cerita pasal anak pun satu hal. mcm ko sorang je ada anak. setiap jam update. btw, wtf aku masih ada frens dgn org mcm ni pun aku tak tahu.

mungkin sesekali best meng-annoy-kan diri sendiri dgn membaca status-status org lain.

merry Christmas everyone.

challo
salam
hmo

big pipe??

assalamualaikum and hye..

talking about marriage, congrats to all my frens who got married a week or two ago, the following weeks and the following months.

congrats to one of my best fren, jessie.. im not sure if i cud attend ur wedding at sabah. the budget is tight dear. :(

i would love to talk more about jess here, but i prefer to make it private between sipping teh tarik at our mamak stall. some are kept to ourselves.

smile while we can, but its hard nowadays.

currently, i always remember my biomed hod, dr azuan. he always pat my back in bio-mechanics II class and said, "you can do it, no problem" (back then im fighting to graduate).

I still owe him lunch. i still cant make time for him while back then, he would listen to me even he have a minute or two before meetings..*sigh*

smile..
credit to the photographer, azim or alino?

fight while you can.

*if you have inquiries about the title, ask me, sarah, alino or kak mah. funny story. ;p

challo
salam
hmo

asslamualaikum and hye..

i hate when i start to think stupid thoughts. i prefer when i was back at UM where my mind are more free compared to now.

aku benci bila aku mula susah hati. bila aku susah hati, sometimes my brain is not functioning properly. i always tot that im a care free person, but im human after all.

susah hati fail PDE pun aku blh terima lagi, sbb aku yakin satu hari aku akan pass jugak. or fail calculus pun. aku mampu senyum dan teruskan hidup pergi ke kelas setiap pagi.

but skrang nih, life itself is so different. kehidupan tertuju kepada satu arah. aku sentiasa lupa bahawa hidup tidak kekal, dan sentiasa berfikir yang bukan-bukan.

"Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku dari mu
Kau berdiri teguh

Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba
Aku hilang dari kewujudan"

-yuna-

kadang kala, harus dengar lirik-lirik disebut dgn betul.

owh. jiwa kacau. aku tak suka keadaan begini..

challo
salam
hmo

who???

assalamualaikum and hye...

today my office named a new GM. dont care about the new GM.

today also, they named a new engineer which will be working with me. i think i WILL be working under him.

i dont like how the interim GM introduce the new engineer to all the staff.

feels like he is "mocking" me. so fuck you.

"he has a degree in EE and master in HR". why do you have a master in HR asked the interim GM, he answered, " i KNOW everything in engineering, no need a master on it".. and this happen in the interview.

this guy just remind me of someone who i really hate, and i havent even met him yet.

dalam interview dah angkuh macam ni. so i will give u hell if u suck big time mister.

i feel verrryyyyyyy appreciated, thanks to atok, u just make me want to leave faster than ever.

"work efficiently during office hours and leave on time. give the required time to your family, friends and have proper rest" bryan dyson -ex ceo of coca cola-

challo
salam
hmo


ps: cant wait for my "starman" book from alino. it came as far from UK. btw, i still have my "firstman" with me.

talk about these later. both are great books and great people.

fix you..

assalamualaikum and hye..

just woke up. so tried. sepatutnya jumpa sarah sayang today, but my body just wont let me out of bed.

tetiba stress, penat dan letih. bangun tgk tv, layan series "life after humans" sgt depressing. dah la lately i kept on having bad dreams.

i not sure what are my problems. getting all worked up perhaps. jiwa kacau.

i miss studying so much, that i realize i went to calculus class which starts at 8.00 am more diligently compared when i start working. 98% im never late for calculus even thou i failed the paper 5 times.

nowadays, nak bgn kerja pun malas. maybe i juiced up all my energy while studying perhaps? but like siddik told me, "baru keje 2-3 tahun dah tak larat, mcm mana org yg keje 30 tahun, patutlaa duduk lama kat kedai kopi".. :)

im worried about myself. i can feel i have a lot of hate inside me. dulu, tak pernah kisah pun, maybe now baru nak tgk dunia. semua ada je tak kena.

suddenly i miss tok yam..

tok yamm

"When You Try Your Best, But You Don't Succeed
When You Get What You Want, But Not What You Need
When You Feel So Tired, But You Can't Sleep
Stuck In Reverse"

-fix you, coldplay-

challo
salam
hmo

pissedddddddddd..

assalamualaikum and hye..

J.F.K once said, "Ask not, what your country can do for you. Ask what, you can do for your country."

when i start working, i was " sacrifice for work, one day you will be rewarded".. sbb semangat muda dan waja yg membara.. calculus lima kali katakan..

but now, " you HAVE to do your work becoz no one in the office knows how.."

im not complaining..

i miss my old colleagues. they have a pool table in the middle of the fcuking office, and plasma+astro is coming. FISH! mangg....


salam
challo
hmo

earn it..

assalamualaikum and hye..

i knew that people come in different shape and sizes. they come in different life style and different childhood.

no one is perfect. but i knew a LOTS of people tried to be perfect and being accepted as an equal. so for me, trying to be perfect is normal. not a sin.

but sometimes i hate people who thinks that they are a prince or princess where we should lay a red carpet and treat them like royalty. and further more, this kind of people are widely accepted in the society just because they came from the sky. i wish i could shoot them before "they" could even touch the ground.

i knew myself as hafiz. maybe i cant accept some people. i could hate them, like them, but people never cause me a problem. i can just push them away. but sometimes, they do get around my nerve.

but for me, respect is something to be earned. not just standing still, and expecting a blowjob from someone.

i knew lots of people might have a problem with me, i'm not that kind or nice. i was rejected by nik sai in our early days of frenship, and i was also being left out by some people in my studying days. but those are the past. i start to forget about it, and make it as a joke sometimes.

but still, i tried to be as neutral as possible. stay in the middle. and keep the problems to myself.

it is great to have someone by your side. for those who don't know, i'm engaged to sarah ayuni. i will make a post on it later.

here are a few pix, more will come later.

hafiz & sarah.

brotherly love & sarah xkasi i balik.


the ceremony.

wait for the merisik and pertunangan post. hehe

challo
salam
hmo

teknisyen..

assalamualaikum and hye..

kali nih cerita teknisyen lagi. apasal ntah teknisyen suka cari pasal ngan aku.

sesekali aku tak paham org yg tak paham kerja org lain. semua dia ingat senang. kerja dia je susah.

lahanat betul. ko tahap teknisyen, perangai macam teknisyen, otak ko dah tak leh blah kan?

otak ko tahap itu je. dah xleh pi lagi. then ko start nak ajar aku and cakap mcm mana aku kena bekerja? aku ni layan ko sebab satu je brader, aku nak setel kan project kat tempat ko jeee. takde masa aku nak blaja dgn ko, puas dah aku blaja. tak yah nak tunjuk ajar aku.

bukan aku blagak, bukan aku angkuh, bukan aku takabur, tapi sumpah apa yg ko cakap adalah sampah. please sambung blaja. aku nih pun tak cukup ilmu pun still rendah diri nak sambung blaja.

kalau ko cakap betul takpe, ini sumpah bawah tapak kaki aku nye tahap pun tak sampai nak sound-sound aku.

so please, keje ko adalah hanya tgk aku uruskan kerja. kalau nak arah-arah org, tolong sambung blaja. bagi aku ko tak cukup bijak lagi.

dia cakap, "bro, keje ko nih kan senang jeeeeee. sangat senang. yg ko stress sangat pehal?"

aku jawab, " beb, keje aku nih, kalau senang, sumpah aku berak ngan tenang, ini nak berak pun susah pekes?

ko ingat keje aku umpama basuh tangan, basuh berak ke?

challo
salam
hmo

ps: mintak maap kalau ada terasa. tak tuju pada semua teknisyen. ada je teknisyen yg best which is also my best freen..

bandung..

assalamualaikum and hye..

aku dari dulu teringin makan nasik ayam tepi jalan belakang caltex kat glenmarie tuh. tapi mmg takde masa nak singgah. kalau ada masa, mesti penuh ngan manusia yg makan dgn rakus.

ooohh.. mesti sedap hell neh..

so today, aku singgah. "makcik, nasi ayam satu, dada yeee.. sambal lebeh."

since ada dua air jer yg dia jual. air bandung and cincau, aku mintak air bandung kat pakcik neh which i assume her husband.

"pakcik, air bandung ye."

"baik nak" pakcik tuh balas.

so datangla nasik ayam. hmpprhhhr.. tak sedap. im fooled by the situation. lagi sedap nasi ayam aku buat. macam laa aku pandai masak nasik ayam..

lalu pakcik tuh tanya lagi, "anak ni air apa tadi??"

"bandung cik".. aku jawab sambil makan nasi ayam tak sedap.

walau tak sedap, aku kena habis kan. nnti aku rasa serba salah.

lalu pakcik tuh tanya lagi dari belakang, "anak nak air apa tadi? cincau kan??"

aku jawab, "tak cik, bandung"..

pastu in 2o minutes aku tunggu air bandung aku, pakcik tuh datang, "nah, air cincau nak..."

faker..

hmo
challo
salam

blah blah blah..

assalamualaikum and hye..

im totally disturb by something. "something" that kept playing on and on inside my head.. which is totally driving me nuts. maybe some of you wish me go nuts. becoz somehow i maybe disturb with ur fcuking life.

i still remember way back when my mood swing is like yo-yo. up and down. today im a happy man, next day i will be a tornado. well, it improved when i met sarah. but back then, i also have a few of my colleagues who always backed me and cheer me up.

last week i got my half transcript from UM. told me to check it up weather they have messed up with my result or something. looking at it, i saw how far i been going. from somebody who almost gave up engineering and transferred to another faculty, to someone who only left 12 credits hour and 10 weeks left.

final semester perhaps??

my achievement is nothing. nothing compared to my 3 pointer frens or some hotshots frens from other universities. but looking at it again, it almost a miracle that i had survived this long where i dub UM as mini hell. dulu nak masuk gerbang UM pun takot, now im entering it like it is my second home..

2 weeks back while im having some ice-cream with my long-long fren, we had a good talk. a talk that someone will back off and not even think to intervene. but something he said to me makes me pissed off.

he said, " beb, they way u are saying this, u dont have any confident on urself".

i said, " really??, confident is something that i already have long time before today, and if u be me, im sure u are rotten already. "

but it ended in a nice way. and we are still frens. ha ha ha.

sometime people just talk and talk and talk. but never look back to themselves. sometimes tak sedar pun diri sendiri tak serupa bikin.

i dont like the weather nowadays. its too gloomy.

dslr"ing" looks stupid nowadays. mat rempit pun dah meng-dslr kan diri. go cart anyone?? RM30 at shah alam? any sponsors?? ha ha ha

sometimes u need to go far far away just to have a peace of mind..

ps:

+ i wonder my fren jasmina is back from india..

+ nana, i got u a birthday present already. anta keta mak balik cepat sangat. wa baru nak pass. catch me if u want ur early bday pressie.. ha ha ha.


challo
salam
hmo

when the worlds starts to end..

asalamualaikum and hye.

what is your worst nightmare? benda yg betul2 berlaku. one day is normal, the next day is, "what"? ..............

1- things that NEVER go your way. god always keeps on testing you.

2- u break up with ur loves one. married - divorce, couples - breakups, etc...

3- today u are running, next day u r on the hospital ward.

4- today u are smiling, tomorrow seems endless knowing u got cancer.

5- today u are sleeping just fine, but wake up with loads of miss calls and messages saying u lost someone.

6- today u are torturing someone, next day u got what u deserves.

7- today u are sleeping on a plane, next minute an announcement said," we are crash landing".

8- suddenly u wake up, the world is dark, world starts to end. that moment u will will say, "the world is ending"

9- in this moment, what we achieve in the world seems worthless.

so, when u wake up in the morning, try to be happy. the world is not ending yet. we still have a target age of 70 to live on.

my motivation is, " i will try to be happy everyday"

challo
salam
hmo

angkuh..

assalamualaikum and hye.

sometime people is an ASS.. cakap besar. angkuh. kerek. and kata-kata nya mmg sengaja utk membanggakan diri. dari nada dan perwatakan aku dah dapat taw. no explanation needed.

aku dari dulu mmg tak reti nak cakap ala2 kerek atau belagak ini. mgkn disebabkan diri aku yg bukan kool, tak hensem, bukan datang dari keluarga hebat2 kejayaannya, atau mungkin dari didikan ibu bapa yg sentiasa rendah diri membuat aku sentiasa utk menjadi humble, dan serendah mungkin.

bila dah dewasa ini, ramai kawan2 aku yg begini. ada yg begitu bangga mengatakan ini dan itu atau menunjukkan barang ini dan barang itu. as usual, aku akan cakap "WOW!!, kool gile" atau, "gile ah! bagus2.. congrats!!". padahal aku tidak heran langsung atau tak kisah pun. even thou i have things better to say or show compared to them, i wud rather keep it low and just shut up..

today i got some experience. aku jumpa dengan seorang kawan yg sudah grad baru-baru ini.

aku menegurnya, "oit, watpe weh?".

he said ," aku nak hantar borang master nih."

me: " wow! congrats! buat class ke research?"

him: " RESEARCH AH! apa kelas datang class for master!"

if u see him "live" korang rasa nak sepak je. kerek gile. adakah sebab aku extend dia mengatakan begitu? so, fuck you. ko baru nak hantar borang dah kecoh. dapat tak tahu lagi.

member aku sorang yg baru balik dari australia, buat research tak kerek pun. siap cakap "nothing laaaa.. simple2 je.." (now tutor at mech UM and pursuing PhD).

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and today again, i wish my fren, "selamat berbuka"

he replied, "selamat berbuka juga. itu pun kalau ko puasa." WTFuck?

if u know this guy for years, u will know he shudnt said that to me. ini org yg mmg jenis tinggal solat ting tong nye. dari dulu sampai skrang. if u thinking he is joking, baca msg seterusnya adalah lagi sangat menjengkelkan..

ini adalah UMPAMA aku bg msg kat dia, "bro! aku dapat baby boy!"
and he wud be replying, "congrats! itu pun kalau anak ko!"

get it?

aku tidak laa alim-ulama, baik dah kompem masuk syurga. but i know what my responsible to God. banding kan aku dgn dia, he shud not said that.

i know why he said that. he has no respect to his frens. and dia mmg sumpah kerek n angkut diri sendiri. one time dia bangga gila beli hadiah bday kat gf dia, siap tunjuk resit kat aku. mcm aku heran. as usual, i wud say "WOW!!, mahal gilee."

sumpah kalau aku gf dia, aku cakap, "nih je?"

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long time ago, i had a fren yg baru habis blaja diploma UTM.

i said, " dah dapat keje?"

him: "not yet.."

me: " ko mintak apa, TA? (technical assistant)

him: "apa barang TA? AE laa! aku diploma UTM ok. (assistant engineer)

perlu ke cakap mcm tu? tak bleh ke being humble? pelik ok.. why i had this kind of people as a fren..

*he ended being a policeman*
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some people u can differentiate.. ada kala nye dorang kerek, kita tak terasa langsung. mgkn kita tahu peribadi mereka ini. they just be joking. cakap pun gelak2. tiada iras muka yg menunjukkan mcm nak pijak muka kita.

but what i have experience above, i know them. some of them as long as 13 years. itu laa dia. sometimes, aku selalu sangat simpan. terlalu rendah diri. and emo today..

well, my frens, selamat berpuasa. selamat berbuka..

salam
challo
hmo

twenty six..

assalamualaikum and hye..

im 26 this year.

and its a lousy year.. full of shit..

a year when all my emotional are hay-wire.

2009 is not the year i like.

theres something inside my chest that wont come out.

aku tak puas hati tentang sesuatu. but i dont know what.

something is not perfect. and something is wrong.

as a conclusion, 2009 is my emo year. i never feel this down before.

when im going to stand on my both feet back?

skrang still rasa mcm atas kerusi roda.

demm. im tired, and stressed out. "mcm laa org lain tak hafiz..." (hati kecil ku bertanya)..

thnx for all the birthday wishes..

thnx to adik for the altec speakers, ayah for the book, and aiskrim goreng sid. (sid blanje 2 bijik!) ahahah.

i hate skool. dont know my fucking problem.

challo
salam
hmo