everyday is fucking bullshit

everday sucks.

everyday ada je tak kena.

ada je tak puas hati.

ada je tak dapat.

ada je yang sakit kan hati.

how the fuck to fix it.

it must be fun bungee jumping rite now and 20 rounds on a go cart.

budak kecik..

assalamualaikum and hye..

selamat hari raya. maaf zahir batin.

tiada post puasa, buka, terawih, atau hari raya. reason pertama, i have no mobile camera yg melekat kat telepon. the one im using is when the Japanese went rampant colonizing Malaya on WWII. org jepun dah pakai nokia aku neh utk contact org2 dorang.. hehe

second reason, maybe i dont like raya very much.. i tot it was only me, but nana pun sama gak. tapi sarah menjanjikan sesuatu yg baru bila dah kawen nanti. dia cakap raya kat KB bes.. will see.. a fren of my budak kelantan taknak ngaku (peroz) dia cakap.. "hmmmmmmmmm, tak bes langsung"..

my title today is budak kecik.. where in my memory, ada gak aku ingat sedikit sebanyak semasa tembesaran aku. i can remember my childhood at Taiwan vaguely, but its not that interesting, because kat sana, sama ada seronok pergi sekolah, atau tadah tangan nak toys apa saja.

masa nak balik mersing on the third raya, we stop at tangkak R&R. skrang dah besar2, malas gila nak solat jemaah. dulu rajin gak tepuk2 bahu org solat jemaah, but skrang amalan itu semakin malas aku lakukan.

bila dah habis solat asar aku duduk di bangku, lepak2 tunggu ayah aku. ada budak kecik masuk ke surau. dia kemas2 kan seluar dan baju. dah la kecik, pendek pula. mungkin darjah 4 atau 5. kemudian dia bentang kan sejadah di belakang seorg dewasa dan dgn bersungguh 2mengjengketkan kaki nak tepuk bahu seorg makmum dewasa. dan bersolat jemaah laa dia..

bg aku, ini adalah satu tamparan bg aku yg sudah dewasa. tak sedar2 diri nak berjemaah.. haih..

today, after sepak2 bola ngan budak bawah umur kat padang, aku merehatkan diri di depan rumah dgn ais kat lutut kanan aku. bukan ada injury, but a precaution. my knee still need tendering.

kemudian ada dua budak kecik depan rumah. sorang kakak, sorang adik. kakak dia tgk makan aiskrem 10sen yg boleh belah dua itu. adik dia datang mintak nak. dia pun cakap, " jaappp, kakak gigit bg ko"..

wahh.. seingat aku, kecik dulu takde aku share2 ngan nana atau adik. asyik gaduh je. skrang baru laa nak hidup bertamadun sket.. hahaha.

bila tgk aiskrem 10sen itu, aku teringat masa aku kecik berumur darjah 5. tanggungjawab aku masa itu adalah meneman adik ke sekolah agama. setiap kali nak ke sekolah agama akan aku melintasi sebuah kedai runcit dimana adik aku akan mintak aiskrem 10sen neh. peristiwa ini berlaku berbulan2 lamanya. sampai la satu hari......

adik aku batuk2 demam2. ayah aku tanya adik, makan apa kat sekolah. adik cakap makan aiskrem batang 10sen neh setiap hari. tak pasal2 aku kena kejut pukul 3 pagi, berdiri depan ayah, dgn tangan dibelakang dan kepala tunduk kena marah sbb belikan adik aiskrem 10sen.. ayah cakap lain kali beli aiskrem cap nestle atau walls shj.. tak pasal2.. but it teach me lots of things that day..

well, kelas dah start. lagi 5-6 minggu adalah FINALS.. i hate exam. who doesnt?

ciao
salam
hmo

angkuh..

assalamualaikum and hye.

sometime people is an ASS.. cakap besar. angkuh. kerek. and kata-kata nya mmg sengaja utk membanggakan diri. dari nada dan perwatakan aku dah dapat taw. no explanation needed.

aku dari dulu mmg tak reti nak cakap ala2 kerek atau belagak ini. mgkn disebabkan diri aku yg bukan kool, tak hensem, bukan datang dari keluarga hebat2 kejayaannya, atau mungkin dari didikan ibu bapa yg sentiasa rendah diri membuat aku sentiasa utk menjadi humble, dan serendah mungkin.

bila dah dewasa ini, ramai kawan2 aku yg begini. ada yg begitu bangga mengatakan ini dan itu atau menunjukkan barang ini dan barang itu. as usual, aku akan cakap "WOW!!, kool gile" atau, "gile ah! bagus2.. congrats!!". padahal aku tidak heran langsung atau tak kisah pun. even thou i have things better to say or show compared to them, i wud rather keep it low and just shut up..

today i got some experience. aku jumpa dengan seorang kawan yg sudah grad baru-baru ini.

aku menegurnya, "oit, watpe weh?".

he said ," aku nak hantar borang master nih."

me: " wow! congrats! buat class ke research?"

him: " RESEARCH AH! apa kelas datang class for master!"

if u see him "live" korang rasa nak sepak je. kerek gile. adakah sebab aku extend dia mengatakan begitu? so, fuck you. ko baru nak hantar borang dah kecoh. dapat tak tahu lagi.

member aku sorang yg baru balik dari australia, buat research tak kerek pun. siap cakap "nothing laaaa.. simple2 je.." (now tutor at mech UM and pursuing PhD).

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and today again, i wish my fren, "selamat berbuka"

he replied, "selamat berbuka juga. itu pun kalau ko puasa." WTFuck?

if u know this guy for years, u will know he shudnt said that to me. ini org yg mmg jenis tinggal solat ting tong nye. dari dulu sampai skrang. if u thinking he is joking, baca msg seterusnya adalah lagi sangat menjengkelkan..

ini adalah UMPAMA aku bg msg kat dia, "bro! aku dapat baby boy!"
and he wud be replying, "congrats! itu pun kalau anak ko!"

get it?

aku tidak laa alim-ulama, baik dah kompem masuk syurga. but i know what my responsible to God. banding kan aku dgn dia, he shud not said that.

i know why he said that. he has no respect to his frens. and dia mmg sumpah kerek n angkut diri sendiri. one time dia bangga gila beli hadiah bday kat gf dia, siap tunjuk resit kat aku. mcm aku heran. as usual, i wud say "WOW!!, mahal gilee."

sumpah kalau aku gf dia, aku cakap, "nih je?"

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long time ago, i had a fren yg baru habis blaja diploma UTM.

i said, " dah dapat keje?"

him: "not yet.."

me: " ko mintak apa, TA? (technical assistant)

him: "apa barang TA? AE laa! aku diploma UTM ok. (assistant engineer)

perlu ke cakap mcm tu? tak bleh ke being humble? pelik ok.. why i had this kind of people as a fren..

*he ended being a policeman*
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some people u can differentiate.. ada kala nye dorang kerek, kita tak terasa langsung. mgkn kita tahu peribadi mereka ini. they just be joking. cakap pun gelak2. tiada iras muka yg menunjukkan mcm nak pijak muka kita.

but what i have experience above, i know them. some of them as long as 13 years. itu laa dia. sometimes, aku selalu sangat simpan. terlalu rendah diri. and emo today..

well, my frens, selamat berpuasa. selamat berbuka..

salam
challo
hmo

habiss...

assalamualaikum and hye..

ten days ago, kawan aku berkonvo. congrats to them. a few pictures to share..





the first row is with my cappo di tutti, alinur ayuni. hopefully she got what she wants in life and become a successful engineer one day.

the second row are the left out of the "first seven". there are five of us left. the most right is qish..

the third row is with the guys. haris and siddiq, congrats to them and to sirul, ur konvo will be on October if im not mistake. congrats to u too.



these pictures above are taken by me, with the help of Canon EOS 1000D. pinjam dari angah. i wanna that piece on my arm one day. Congrats to all of you.

hopefully, u all will be somebody one day. help the nation. help the people. lots more is coming. wish u all good luck..

selamat berpuasa.

challo
salam
hmo

konvo.

assalamualaikum and hye..

esok kawan-kawan aku berkonvo. i will be very excited if im them. no UM. no books. i like it.

tapi, aku tiada dalam acara esok. im proud of my frens. they show that its possible for me to graduate one day. im waiting for that moment.

some of my frens who will be graduating tommorow are very special. all of the initial seven frens (since first year) of mine are graduating, except me. which are:

1. alinur
2. haris
3. siddiq
4. balqis
5. arina
6. haziq

but some of them dont get along fine with me until the end.

well, to those my frens who are graduating tomorrow, congrats my dearest fren expecially to alinur, siddiq, ares, qish, jannah, and ena.

and to the others, congrats too.

on friday, will be my first fren whom i befriend at 12th college, jemme from law fac, and wawapucca on saturday from science fac. congrats too.

and finally to class of 2005/2006 biomed, congrats to u all.

i have a bundle of gifts to be given to whom i regard special. and yang tak dapat, bukan tak nak bg, just the economy is not friendly nowadays.

8 gifts to be given. wonder whos the lucky one..

i ask my fren whom are extending, are they coming to dtc, celebrating, they said:

i ask afiq, "u coming?", he said, "xnak laa. sedey ah. baik aku keje".

i ask jasmina. "coming?", she said, "nope. i takot i emo. i have no against them, but i feel a heavy heart."

i ask myself, "u coming hafiz?, i said .................... let me decide tomorrow..


salam
challo
hmo

ps: CONGRATS!! my friends!!

after 3 weeks..

assalamualaikum and hye.

dah 3 minggu sem 9 aku bermula. as i thought, ianya sangat membosankan, sunyi, not fun, plus being alone sucks.

3 minggu berlaku, tiada yg best. bgn pagi, pergi kelas. tiada gelak2 kawan2 aku seperti alino yg bertanya khabar, siddiq yg mengutuk chelsea, haris yg ajak rematch inter vs chelsea kat ps2, ina yg menjerit2 kat aku mintak series, jannah yg senyap duk diam2 kat penjuru lab comp dimana aku bakal kacau, jas yg selalu tanya pasal lab, atau tiada lagi huu haa ajak makan atau lepak mana. ini sangat membosankan.

3 minggu aku hanya dipenuhi kelas2 yg penuh dgn budak2 yg aku kurang kenali. semua kelas aku ada join from 1st year to 4th year. syuib tecki yg pasang laptop pun cakap, "sabarla.. setahun lagi". dia pun nak p cambodia dah.. im still stuck in mini hell.

3 minggu, di lab still ada kak mah, still ada eisha, but no wawa. aimee pun nak pergi. haih.. still can go bfast with eisha once in a while. pojiee is still around. lepak2 ngan dia buat gempita kat blok U. still jas visit me once in a while at UM, alino meet me when she got the time, while the HP boys make me homey and feel like we are studying together.

3 minggu, kelas dah start. semua kelas bosan. semua lecterur stat kelas spt biasa. memulakan ugutan mengenai ponteng kelas and sign utk org. semua tak welcoming. ugut dan ugut. bosan aku mendengarnya. tetapi prof Wan juga yg berlainan. he is different. dia cakap juga pasal ponteng and sain kan utk org tetapi versi yg sungguh bes..

begini ceritanya, " jgn sain kan utk kawan saudara. pernah berlaku satu kes, ada kawan dia sainkan utk kawan dia yg lain. kawan dia yg lain ponteng kelas dan terlibat dalam satu pembunuhan. dia bunuh kekasih dia yg curang. apabila siasatan polis berlaku, dia mengatakan dia ada alibi. dia di kelas. sain ini adalah buktinya.. akhirnya, dengan kecekapan polis mmg dapat dibuktikan dia yg membunuh kekasih nya, dan kawan yg tolong sainkan juga kena di sabitkan kesalahan kerana bersubahat.. oleh itu jgn sainkan utk org.."

satu kelas senyap.. prof wan berkata lagi, " dan ini hanya la cerita saya reka. jgn percaya.." satu kelas gelak.. he is still the bes lecterur at biomed. im glad he is still teaching. he is the best biomed will have..

lecterurs pun are nice to me. no push over. dr wan sangat frenly and always ask me for my opinion for the class. pn norita pun sangat chill. nak wat kelas ganti, i said i got kelas at that time, she said, hmmm, meet me and take the notes. nsc selalu tegur how im doing. datin pun sekali tanya aku n senyum skali. bharti and kkh is as usual. dr hew from electrical is another lecture i like a lot. he is cool. while the lecterur from UIA is always confusing..

got to go. tomorrow class is at 8..

challo
salam
hmo

ps: "1 year to go hafiz.. finish it, please.. grad with me.." , a call from jasmina..

are we there yet??

assalamualaikum and hye..

on 27-28 june, kita org p PD. a total of 8 of us. termasuk tuan rumah qish. the trip was fun but im sure, dorang p tioman adalah jauh lagi bes. tetapi, kawan-kawan aku yg sanggup meluangkan masa bersama aku di PD sangat laa bes. ahli2 yg terlibat:

1. hafiz
2. alinur
3. hares
4. ena-eno
5. sarah (KEU)
6. alif (bf sarah)
7. abbad
8. qish

it was a blast. we have fun. i got my stress out of my system. qish was a wonderful tour guide, plus she cook for us! nak apa lagi laa kan..

being me, the last time pergi PD adalah sangat tak ingat. when the last time i went to PD entah bila. maybe tak penah pergi pun. so dah lama tak jumpa pantai and pasir, aku sedikit jakun..

playing with water and sand

well, as u peeps can see, abbad jadi mangsa mayat dalam pasir, plus ada gmbr2 yg sangat tidak sesuai utk kanak-kanak utk ditunjukkan, tetapi di postkan di facebook kami semua di bawah tajuk pelabuhan dickson if im not mistaken.

the water was clean, bt the weather adalah sangat panas. tapi berbaloi. we all mandi pagi sampai-sampai je PD, bcoz in the afternoon im already out of gas.

siap ada gmbar aku kena tarik ke laut atas sebab2 yg tertentu. im glad that we play with the sand that moment. rasa sangat kanak2. gelak2 like our future are so far away and theres alots of oppurtunities that are awaiting for us just like the open sea..

dah puas mandi, we makan2 kat umah qish. she cooked. and seriusly sedap. hahah. bkn kerana lapa atau penat, but she can really cook. we ate, and ate, and sleep til 2pm.

next stop was visiting the mueseum. me, as a skeptic, "WHAT???" but it turns out it was an army museum, and it was a blast.

i love these kind of artifacts. tanks, guns, planes, etc that are related to the army. some how im very patriotic . hahahah

muzium tuh mmg mcm "big boys toys" yg tak dapat dimiliki, but u can touch it, ride on it and dream on it.. it was superb.

"big boys toys"

dah lepas muzium, we return to the beach. qish was waiting for the perfect spot, and sirul and aimal was there to add the fun.

we had prepared a BBQ. thanks to alif and sarah, it was perfect. it was superb. bakar kambing kat tepi laut with all the wind and watching the sun vanish at the horizon was mesmerizing...

bbq kat tepi pantai tuh adalah something which i would remember for a long-long time... its was so memorable..

the perfect bbq

there are more pictures. if im not mistaken, gmbr di kamera haris belum di upload. aku harap we have another great moment like this in the future..

and my favourite pix which i save for the last....

from the left: ena - hafiz - haris - alinur ayuni

thanks for making it happen.
jgn lupa lepak pelita bila ada masa lagi.
frens are forever.


challo
salam
hmo