Wednesday, June 17, 2009

twenty six..

assalamualaikum and hye..

im 26 this year.

and its a lousy year.. full of shit..

a year when all my emotional are hay-wire.

2009 is not the year i like.

theres something inside my chest that wont come out.

aku tak puas hati tentang sesuatu. but i dont know what.

something is not perfect. and something is wrong.

as a conclusion, 2009 is my emo year. i never feel this down before.

when im going to stand on my both feet back?

skrang still rasa mcm atas kerusi roda.

demm. im tired, and stressed out. "mcm laa org lain tak hafiz..." (hati kecil ku bertanya)..

thnx for all the birthday wishes..

thnx to adik for the altec speakers, ayah for the book, and aiskrim goreng sid. (sid blanje 2 bijik!) ahahah.

i hate skool. dont know my fucking problem.

challo
salam
hmo

Sunday, June 7, 2009

taking chance..

assalamualaikum and hye..

i just watch a movie called "taking chance". its a story about the iraq war, but no shooting involved. im not pro war or pro US. but i like war pictures, mostly from the WWII.

but the what i learn is, take all the chances u can. sama ada ianya tidak berkaitan atau tidak logic, if it a chance of something new, why not try to take it and make it an experience.

tak kisah laa what kind of chances it is.

+ sambung belaja. kalau jauh mana pun, take it. there is alot of oppurtunity than not studying if u got the chance.

+ learn something new. try to drill a hole in the wall. did u know that silver and black colored drills have different strength?

+ do something that u havent done yet. well i have try few things with my frens. thanks to lino, and ares, i have gone a few adventures. try wall climbing. perut boroi macam aku neh mmg takkan sampai 50 meter pun, bukak mata naik roller coaster ada lah sangat horror and go cart adalah sangat fun. wait when we laugh playing baseball at OU.

+ starting a r.ship is scary. we dont know the end. but if u got the chance, why not. but make sure u ready to face all the hardships. a r.ship is not easy. quite like rocket sciences.

theres alot of chances that could come around us. new jobs, new tests, new encounter, new challenges. even tomorrow, when we wake up, god have make new challenges for us. even making up a new decision is taking a chance. moving to a new house, buy a car, buy furniture, is something big. big decision because it involves money, and plans.

new season of intakes will enter UM at july. fresh faces, fresh brains and great spirit. for them a few ideas for them:

+ UM is one of the best univ. at malaysia. tak dapat apex pun takpe. still the best.

+ u are free inside here. bebas. u are treated as adults. some of ur lecturers will treated u mcm dia yg bayar gaji u all. but still, kalau ko kuat melawan, u will be happy.

+ suruh kawan sain for attendance, takder hal, just jangan korang xgi kelas pastu eksiden. mmg kantoi busuk.

+ makes frens. makes new frens. cari kawan sebanyak mungkin. and save them til u get old.

+ study. study hard. nak ponteng kelas boleh. but when u fail, u will fall hard. just remember to stay up back. back ups from close frens are essential.

+ be active. if u are good in sports, fight for it.

+ and to budak poly yg akan masuk next sem, jgn belagak, jgn kerek, jaga mulut, jgn wat malu pada diri sendiri. u guys sux actually nak dibandingkan ngan dak2 matrix or stpm. be humble, respect people and respect to these kiddos or u guys akan makan taik. learn the hard way. jgn nak main sound org je, and dont make a fool of urselves. tak payah pikir ko tua 3-4 tahun ko cukup hebat. tak perlu bahas kan diri kakak atau abang bcoz i dont think u deserve the respect if ur attitude is equal to shit. jgn pikir u can arah org and cakap besar with what u learn. its bullshit. be cool, be humble, be nice to people, jgn kedekut with what u have and what u learn. and what i learn, my poly jr are shit. sombong. belagak. and mcm biasa, taik.

salam
challo
hmo

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

i wonder..

assalamualaikum and hye..

today, i learn something. i learned a valuable lesson. a lesson that comes with age and experience. a lesson with a value more than half a century.. a lesson that makes me think more and more and more and more and more..

apa yg membuatkan manusia itu berhak untuk tuntut lebeh dari sepatutnya? pangkatnya? amalnya? pengalamannya? atau diri sendiri merasakan dia lebih bagus dari org lain?

mengapa sukar untuk mencari org yg bersyukur dgn apa yg ada? aku sendiri pun susah untuk berpuas hati dgn apa yang ada. aku mahu yg lebih baik, tetapi bg aku ianya harus la berpada-pada. usaha, rezeki, dan qada' dan qadar harusla dipegang. walau mcm mana pahitnya kehidupan itu.

hari nih, ada org cakap pada aku bahawa harta dan pangkat adalah penting. penting dari segi pandangan org. it contribute 40% of your life. kalau takder degree, org takkan respect. kalau takder pangkat, u r nothing. just piece of shit. well, in part of it i agree, but i most of it i disagreed. why?

+ ko orang berpangkat. ko bijak. ko ada datuk, prof, ir, emiritus, PhD, master, degree, diploma, stpm, spm, pmr, upsr, dan pts yg gempak, dan sentiasa nombor 1 disekolah. but u sucks. no one respect u because attitude mcm anjing. berbaloikah? yes. but u live in ur own fucking world.

+ ko baik, ko tolong org, ko juga berpangkat, dan ko juga direspect pada suatu masa dahulu. but when kantoi cntoh mengambil rasuah, semua kebaikan ko hilang. org lupa kebaikan yg telah dilakukan berpuluh2 tahun dahulu.. starts back with zero. adil kah? tak..

bnyk lagi contoh why i disagree with the statement. bermcm2 lagi senario yg membuat aku terfikir. tetapi, the main idea here is, kenapa kita tidak boleh hidup dgn rendah diri, humility serta penuh dengan hormat antara satu sama lain. bersama kawan, bersama suami isteri, adik beradik atau bersama pasangan sekali pun.. is it too hard?

apa hak kita nak nilai org? most scenario i heard is, selalu kutuk polis malaysia. RASUAH. itu laa, ini laa, yes, it happen. but kalau kita yg tegur nih, adakah kita cukup baik? gi club, minum carlsberg (for muslim), no problem. then bila nak projek, pandai pulak bg hadiah, bagi duit bawah meja, tapi kutuk org lain nombor satu. apa bezanya org mcm nih?

is it too hard being able to be rational? susah ke nak hormat org tua, muda, penyapu sampah, driver bas sekolah, pak gat? who are we? kenapa perlu angkuh dgn org lain? walaupun kita ada kompeni, kita bayar pekerja kita with our own money, but adakah kita berhak nak memalukan dia di depan org ramai serta, menghina, mencerca dsb? yes, mungkin.. but thats because ur attitude mcm haram. dats why u do it.

i hope, one day, i wouldnt turn out to be like this, maybe im complaining now, but later bila aku dah berjawatan besar, gaji besar, adakah aku sendiri akan berubah? aku harap jika aku berubah, i hope sarah, my sisters, my parents, mak utih, tok yam, mama boleh sepak muka aku and ingatkan aku where im standing.

sarah has told me that, the important thing is attitude. mcm mana ko kecik, begitu la ko besar. jika nak berubah, berubah semasa membesar. kalau tak, thats how u die with. i do agree that ATTITUDE is one of the MOST important value in life. there are others, but i will keep mine with attitude.

and today, someone said to me, "by hook or by crook, get that degree". i will.

challo
salam
hmo